Wednesday, March 28, 2012

the people who remind us life is happening right now

Perpetual flaw: When I'm super busy or overwhelmed or both, I tend to become a hermit and go into isolation.

Today was one of those days where I fell into a nap I later resented. I was behind on my studying for the week and was scheduled to go to our community clinic today for 4 hours.
Gosh, not today. I kept thinking. I've got so much to do.
As it turned out, my favorite doctor was the one seeing patients and it was my job to follow him a.k.a. stay invisible.
Or so I thought.
"Get in here, Saumya. This is where your strengths are going to shine."
He pushed me to listen for abnormal lung sounds and advise a post-menopausal woman on weight loss.

And it made me realize, I should be grateful for this exhaustion, you know? Even the moments that are overwhelming---the moments that create doubt and a lonely vulnerability--- are valuable.

Doesn't it feel so much better to churn out a page of writing when you thought you couldn't? Or wouldn't? Isn't it rewarding to work through that hazy, "writer's block" part of your mind and put it to rest?

We'll all get behind on our edits and rewrites, let the chores pile up, wonder if we should just get on with our lives. But I don't know; perhaps it's getting past those small, day to day hurdles that's as much of a test as the large ones.

"Most people don't know that there are angels out there whose only job is to make sure you don't fall asleep and miss your life."
Brian Andreas


Tuesday, March 20, 2012

gems for improvement

Maybe the key to staying out of a rut is to fill life with things that are new, things that make us better. So instead of sharing any musings on writing, medicine, or anything in between, I thought I'd pass along an article and some quotes.

1.) An article discussing how reading novels stimulates the activity centers in our brain!

"Individuals who frequently read fiction seem to be better able to understand other people, empathize with them and see the world from their perspective"

2.) Quotes to remember

*"Keep yourself so busy with your own refinement that you have little time, energy, or need to criticize others."

Anonymous

*"We are not nouns, we are verbs. I am not a thing---an actor, a writer---I am a person who does things---I write, I act---and I never know what I'm going to do next. I think you can be imprisoned if you think of yourself as a noun."
Stephen Fry

*"Failure is simply an opportunity to begin again. This time, more intelligently."
Henry Ford

*"Some of us are turning into the men we wanted to marry."
Gloria Steinem





Sunday, March 11, 2012

exhaustion...and writing through it

Lately, I've been terrible about "balancing it all." I think I've realized that to an extent, everyone's tired. Or at least, everyone's behind on something.

The past couple weeks have been saturated with exams and 18 hour days. My scrubs always smelled like rotting intestines and at separate times, I found myself scarfing down hummus and pita chips at the kitchen counter just so I wouldn't faint from not eating for 10 hours. There wasn't anything pleasant or glamorous or fulfilling about it.

I fell behind on my writing (and everything else). Sometimes, I noted things down on my handy dandy Word document but other times, I never pushed pen to paper.

It's strange to say this but not writing because I absolutely couldn't helped me be more productive when I could. When I'm away from it, I don't take it for granted as much. I know that each moment is valuable and finite, so I have to use it.

So many times, I wonder about who I'd be if I had the time...all the while forgetting that not having time is already shaping me in the right direction.